I started a detox this morning developed by my partner in fitness crime, Jenn at For the Glow. Of course in the back of my mind was the cranky thought “Well, if I’m giving up alcohol and caffeine for five days, I better damn well lose about 35 pounds!”
Jenn must have felt those vibes across the city, because she posted this incredible new perspective on her site:
“By entering into a detox with weight loss on the brain, you end up missing out on the most significant part of the process: The act (or the art) of letting go. On multiple levels, a detox will allow us the opportunity to release what is no longer serving us. Out with the old stagnant energy, in with vibrant life force and health. Out with bad habits, in with a new appreciation for taking the utmost care of yourself.”
Huh. That’s an amazing way of thinking of things. What can I let go of, do without, release? Possibly the very things I fight to hold onto.
As I drifted to sleep last night, her final words echoed in my head.
“When I let go of who I am, I become what I might be. When I let go of what I have, I receive what I need.”
I decided to let go.
-Of dependence on alcohol (not that I’m dependent, but it’s fully integrated into my social rituals when it doesn’t need to be)
-Of dependence on Facebook (too much time wasted being self conscious)
-Of dependence on fear (don’t we all hold onto our fears like a vicious security blanket?)
This week, when confronted with a desire to depend on these things, “oh just one drink, I wonder if anyone commented on my post, I don’t think I’m good enough to attempt that…” I will instead let go. I will tell myself, “you’re stronger than that. And I love you.”
Is there something you need to let go of?